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Creativity [09 Aug 2006|12:50am]
[ mood | thoughtful ]
[ music | Silence - Best Thinking Music ]

So while sitting here attempting to draw, which I can't do by the way, my mind turned to creativity.

Creativity is the motivation of the active mind.

For dullards, and lets face it, this category is a whole lot of people. Creativity, which is at its base form is change, scares people who are not willing or able to keep their minds active.

A lazy mind fears change, for a lazy mind is caught in a rut. Often time I think this rut is why organized religon functions so well for the masses, it gives them a peaceful rut to stay in, and lots of circular arguments to fight off change and feel smart.

But thats another subject.

Creativity is this precious substance that we must work to make our minds create. Then we can use this to, excuse the modification of an old phrase, spice up our life.

It is used to make our jobs better, our cooking better, our sex better, our style better, us better. Creativity in a relationship is invaluable, especially among intelligent people because we get bored easily.

I think we can all say we were bored in at least one of our relationships. I think what keeps couples together for a long time is a combination of 3 things (oversimplified); love, acceptance, interest. Acceptance encompasses trust, comfortablity, and compatablity, and Interest encompasses creativity, spontinaity, and passion.
For the most part I would say that smart people have the hardest time with acceptance. An active mind questions, and accepting someone is to quit thinking, its the mind giving up on possibilities. Probably why we are all the most paranoid too.
Two people may love eachother a huge amount, but without at least one of the other 2, and probably both, it seems unlikely that it will work. ETC.
I would argue that the only 2 point connection that will last, is Love and Acceptance. Interest is the only point (at least in my model) that can be completely ignored. I would also argue that this relationship would only last between 2 dullards. Two people who are to scared to change, or enjoy boredom. The interest never needs to be there because they are in that rut.

This is of course an underdeveloped oversimplified conjecture. But I like it. Its some good clay for future sculptures.

Oh must remember my figure 8 theory about religon for my next rant.

(I am fully aware that I sound like an elitest snob, talking about smart humans like a seperate species, and I am also fully aware of the copious spelling errors on this page /disclaimer off)

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A Truthful Moment [09 Aug 2006|09:10pm]
[ mood | confused ]
[ music | None, Office silence ]

Still tired.
Addicted now….jealousy now.

I do not want these feelings.

I haven’t been out of a relationship for more than a few days in 5 years.

Kira forced herself on me in 2001. Spring, after 6 months of being single. After the military I started dating Jess while I was still going out with Kira. Broke up with Kira over the phone cause I was a coward and it was eaiser. Jess and I dated until 2005, where she broke up with me and I had about 2 weeks of tortured alone time before I started “seeing” Rachel. Though it was a long distance relationship so I really was alone anyway. Still several visits and a lot of misguided promised commitment, and I realized that it was wrong, and I wasn’t in love, and that we were not going to work. Unfortunately yet again I was a coward and broke it off via phone, after I started see another girl.

So look at me. Sinner among the sinful. Am I afraid to be alone?

I think I am.

I am tired, at work, and bored. I am getting emotionally attached, but its leading to jealousy, something I hate, cause it make me angry. My angry is horrible. I have learned to manage it, but this may be pushing it.

I am not a good person. I don’t claim to be. Perhaps I will learn from this, but perhaps not.

I am going to get so drunk Friday, cause I haven’t ever done it before…and hell if this isn’t the year for firsts.

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