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Night Life [27 Jan 2006|02:03am] [ mood | indescribable ] [ music | The Screams of Lust ] I am up. Called everyone I knew tonight to break the solitude a little bit. Clint- Is having a bitch of a time out-processing from his current Air Force job and making it to his next. Ian- Jamie wont let Ian talk to his friends if they call around dinner....what is he 12?? He pays the fucking bills. Ahh well....married life changes people. E-Beth- The baby is due in March (the 17th to be exact, though from what I have heard there isn't much exact about delieveries even in our modern world) but she and Rob are still chillin in Castle Rock, biding their time to corrupt another soul on this earth, while their dog builds his rocket sled in the basement (He is no too pleased about the new brother, having just got rid of his retarted one last year.) Ok so that isn't eveyone I know...but close. My roommate is getting all her lose ends tied up (wink wink nudge nudge) And she is being none to quiet about it. Her small dog is pestering me, cause they locked it out of the room. I swear if that dog didn't have my cats, it would be lonelier than me. Tommorrow I need to pay for my storage container for another month. My parents have apparently renigged (wow that is a racial slur word like gypted, first time writing it) on their bargin to bring my stuff to me in Newport. Which sucks, cause no TV and all my movies and shows are in storage. Machi is looking at me like it is time to sleep, but I am thinking about a shower first. Also I have to find the Black Cat....with her full Teir 2 Bloodfang set on...I can never find her, her stealth is too good. (Yes this is a squegalorc reffrence E-beth, go find my mithril helmet) The most annoying loud mouthed vulgar bastard in our training class go a 100% on the fucking test...the first time in 25 classes (which is all of them) that has happened. Pisses me off...now our trainer has no ammo to grade him poorly. Also his rating is now 4th....which is one higher than me, which really irks me cause I dispise him (yes he is really that bad, you spend 9 hours a day with a loud mouth vulgar negative New Yorker and see how you fare). I also found out he is friends with one of the Leads (Pretend upper managment) who also happens to be the prettiest girl on the GM floor. Now I don't know as of yet whether they are "friends" or not, but he is currently living with her, as he just moved out her from NY. She seems like a nice girl, what is she doing with him? Found the Sephi-Black Cat-B she wandered in on her own, so found is an operative word. She is now on my lap survaying what I type, making sure nothing bad is said about her, though she doesn't check spelling well as you can clearly tell. So night for now. Tomorrow...(today rather)...is a new day. 2 comments|post comment

Morning is Here [27 Jan 2006|01:01pm] [ mood | groggy ] [ music | Cars out the Window ] Another day...well later in the same day. Morning/Early affternoon has come. Time to pay that dreaded storage bill. I am still deciding if after that I should go find the beach, or play Warcraft 3. I know what Rachel would say. Well time for a shower, and a shave. post comment

My Musey Muse [27 Jan 2006|01:38pm] [ mood | apathetic ] [ music | Evenecence ] ~Clio~ Your muse is Clio, the Proclaimer, the muse of History. Her symbol is the scroll. You're very interested in history; have you considered archaeology for a taste of something new? Which of the Nine Muses is your muse? brought to you by Quizilla post comment

Yummy Asian [27 Jan 2006|01:40pm] [ mood | amused ] [ music | Thinking Bad Thoughts ] I like how Asian my Muse looks....and she's a chick! (Comes with the Muse job) Is it wrong to be hot for your Muse? Maybe my Muse is lonely too.... post comment

The Night Watch [27 Jan 2006|11:32pm] [ mood | lonely ] [ music | Whirrrr of the Computer ] The basis of reality. Thinking that what you are doing means something. Believing that an end goal leads to fufillment. How many times a day do we question why we are here, how far we have come? Looking to the past to discover our route into the future. Lately I have found myself asking the question, "How did I end up here?" Honestly this wasn't were, what, or how I expected life after college to look like. Truely when I boil all the questions and thinking down, I get: I don't know how to live with just me. After 23 years of life, and many many hardtimes, and serveral extremely good times, I am faced with the fact that those times were constructed around another person; Family, Roommates, the Military, the Peace Core, College, Girlfriends. Which brings the next question, do we ever truely live for ourselves? Well, I am finding out the answer to that question. I love being around people. When ever I find myself out with good friends I always want the experiance to never end. I lose myself in conversation, making people laugh, and just really enjoy life to the fullest. Alone I constantly re-hash my life, I struggle to fill the days. Work is a blessing for me, I talk to everyone, and help people. It will likely become my soluce in comming months. Can I handle the lonelyness of single life? Probably the lack of proximity to friends is what is making this hard right now. But I see my roommate who comes home most nights and watches TV till bed, the friends she does have like her because she drinks alot (likely to forget her boreing routine, though I don't know this for sure) and apparently is quite vivacious to her male callers in bed. However, she doesn't seem to be happy. She seems jaded, bitter, and very lonely. Likely I presume too much. I have only known her for 2 weeks. Still I don't want to end up at the same place in a year. Its late, the cats are asleep. I am up. Come Sunday I wouldn't have even gotten off work yet. Not a good sign, I must stay up later. 4 comments|post comment

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